the news

"it's the news"

"huh?"

"nothing, please continue"

"i mean, I dunno, our last date was kind of just... I dunno... I don't think we have like a chemistry sort of..? . . ..  wait, now I'm bothered, what did you mean by 'it's the news' I totally heard you explicitly, and I . . .   "

"nothin' it's. ..  back before internet TV and stuff, when we had "prime time television".. back in those days first of all "Prime Time" was kind of ...  kind of something to look forward to.  I mean now with DVRs screwing with TVs natural sleeping cycle.. (clears throat) ..    sorry I digress. . .  anyways, the news..    whenever Kevin Arnold found resolution in some Middle School drama all while dealing with his love for Winnie, whenever Cliff Huxtable finally taught his kids a lesson while doing it with style and keeping the Mrs. happy, when Balki and Larry were finished with their shenanigans all while taking on Chicago and their single life.... right as you learn from them exactly how you might have to ask a girl to the school dance, celebrate your wife's 40th birthday or ask your boss, Mr. Gorpley, for a raise so you can buy your girl a ring... ..  the commercial for the upcoming news at 9 comes on and you get ready to say goodbye to Balky and all your other TV friends.  You know, I agree... our last date was kind of shitty.  It sucked because the whole time i kept thinking 'when is she gonna realize she's way out of my league?' and the thing is you are!  In the pecking order I'm not an Alpha but I'm also not even a geeky nerd... I've always been able to fly under the radar and be at least the penultimate ..  you're a .. beautiful and totally endearing chick . .  just ... you know that Kevin never ended up with Winnie. . and you know Paul didn't either .. .  I'm not Kevin or Paul . . . I'm just that horrible 3rd date to you
  . . .

that's the news"

chapters

new chapters in life beginning

starting interviews on this documentary "makings of a queen"... very first interview was today. . it went well

tomorrow/ today in the morning in 8 hours is orientation for new bartending position at B dubs!

and taking a break in the dating arena.. well maybe i guess.. dating a cool chick who is quirky which i like.. but super cool ..  but just gonna see where this goes and not play the field so hard as i've been going .. so..

all three aspects of life that are important are all accounted for

FUCK YOU ANXIETY!!!

had to repost this... i know this was in halloween, but regardless

r. i. p. Don

A man that was a regular at my bar always brought a smile to my face when I saw him.  My favorite memory was this one summer when he came in.  It was a really hot, scorching Friday and he came in.  First off, it was rare that he came in during the day.  Second, he asked for a cold bottle of Miller Lite; that wasn't his usual Brandy and Diet Coke!!  Then he said he was going to sit outside.  Me and some friends imagined he was just going to "people watch" out on this hot day with his cold beer and sweat catching handkerchief in hand.  For me, Don, represents the old man that I can only wish to be: one that is easy going, brings smiles to people's faces and a guy that can still take time to enjoy the simple things in life.  I really wish I could've had at least one more drink with him.  Maybe had a deeper conversation than whether he likes D'Antoni as the Laker's new head coach or if maybe his Dodgers can make the playoffs.  He'll be missed.

He got hit by a car or truck that Vari (who saw the whole thing) says was going pretty fast.  Vari was watching him cross the street and Don was still on the crosswalk when the light turned green and this speeding vehicle didn't see him.  Don was almost at the sidewalk too.  He was coherent, but I guess he died in the hospital yesterday or early this morning.

deity inspiration

just watched Life of Pi

it was an amazing visual ride

I loved every wonderful, beautiful, visual melange that they gave us.. so awe-inspiring

the "belief in God" thing.. it took me a while to digest.. but this is what i take from it

you can't really wait around asking God for a sign.. waiting for God to do something for you

He does watch over us

what I understand of faith is that you cannot mix it up with fate

there are some who may say they put their life in God's hands, but I think we still have to try and control our own fate while we still have faith that we are being watched over... i dunno... lemme continue this discussion later.. .   still digesting

my heroes are getting old

the almighty Pac man lost..

i'm trying to come to terms with this quickly so i can enjoy what's left of the weekend

well you gotta get hit by reality every once in a while

gotta have the bitter to notice the sweet

it's also the nature of boxing... if you're losing in points it doesn't matter because you can win with just one punch

we have to "protect ourselves at all times"

we have to not get overindulgent or cocky

we have to get knocked on our ass sometimes and feel the agony of defeat

and then we have to get up because "failure is arbitrary".. . what is the legacy you leave?  what are the values you have instilled?  what are your stories you've given us?

documentary film idea

o m g

so many ideas for this film/ film's direction/ interview/ plots

this documentary is named DRAG...

more info to come

i'm so excited to be on a new idea for a film again

haza!

DRAG... don't wanna spill all the beans yet.. just gonna let it brew in my mind for now